Haven't really got around to practicing the piano lately. Does that mean that it was just a passing... as the Chinese say, in direct translation, 3 minute passion? 

I'm not really sure. But I think if I'm determined enough to starve myself for nearly 2-3 months to get myself a digital piano, I'd say its well passionate enough about something. (Definitely not the slight obsession or infatuation)

Unfortunately, I'm not able to put in through my thoughts intellectually, or some would say in a 'linguistic' way. So mind my inability to express in colorful phrasings.

There are many things in life I'd like to achieve. So many dreams, so many goals. I wanted to be a policeman when I was young, but I'm never athletic. I wanted to be a lawyer when I was in secondary school, but I never was... capable, or smart enough. I wanted to go into business, however I'm never able to think out of the box, never unconventional enough.

I wanted to learn piano when I was really young, my parents forbade it. I wanted to be a singer when I was in secondary school, my parents forbade it once again. I went against their wish, funded my own vocal lessons with Ocean Butterfly.

It never went as well as I thought.

I struggled and struggled.

Until I realized, I'm not talented enough.

Others would always like to encourage the rest, hard work always reaps benefit, or you reap what you sow. I beg to differ.

"Hard work is the path leading to opportunity. But opening the door of opportunity is one thing, getting it is another."

Maybe many would disagree, but I never intend to foist my qualities unto others.

Although I dislike to bring up an analogy like this, but I guess I have to.

Assuming theres this person, we dub him/her as "A". "A" worked really hard, studied really hard. And in the end, "A" got an L1R4 of 18 points.

Yes, you'd think its unfair and "A" deserved better for that hard work. You thought that hard work really reaps.

But have you thought that, if "A" didn't worked that hard at all, maybe "A" wouldn't have gotten that 18 points at all?

No, I wasn't trying to say whether "A" is smart or not. We're just saying that the door of opportunity sometimes isn't as easy to get as you think so. Maybe I'll end up offending people, or people may end up thinking I have an elitist mindset, I don't, mind you.

I just feel that. If you keep thinking that, oh, hard work is gonna get me results. Then I think thats just wrong. Theres a flaw with that logic, I'd call it the paradox.

Well, maybe I'll just present the obvious.

"Practice makes Perfect"
"Nobody is Perfect"

You may not link to it, but at least you realize, whatever sagacity the ancient philosophers possess, it belonged to their era. It may not work with the present.

On the other hand, Fate.

Some believes that Fate has etched their destinies before their birth, and blindly accepted it, refusing to make changes to their plight, their state. And remained stagnant, remained stationary.

Some refuses to believe that Fate has etched their destinies. They strongly believed that they have the power to change their own destinies.

I say they are both wrong.

Type 1, they relied too much on luck, coincidences and blamed their failures and things that doesn't went as planned on "Bad Luck", or "Fate". And I meant everything.

Type 2, they may very well end up as one of the few most egoistic people in the world. But little do they know that they can't manipulate "luck". A string of coincidences is luck, a domino effect of coincidences is a Miracle. But they seem to think that they can plan things out. Lets just face it, things may never go as well as planned. Many of you may have experienced this first hand, we usually call it the "Murphy's Law".

Why do I say they are both wrong? There are no extremes for this cases, yes thats really funny, coming from an extreme person like me. I think there are certain things are definitely rolled into places by destiny. But its up to you whether you roll into the same places as 'destiny' or 'fate' rolled you into. 

Don't understand? Its a very simple term called 'choices'. I can't seem to find the right words to put it in. But lets just say this:

"If you have $10, what would you do?"

Ah, thats a huge number of choices presented to you. But what you end up doing, especially things that are incredibly predictable by your nature or personalities, is the things we called 'etched by fate'.

Its a very complex theory I thought, and its not at all complete. So I wouldn't be surprised if many people found flaws in this, explanation I made. But its okay. Even if I were to be proven wrong, I'll just figure life works. Because thats the beauty of life.

If everyone were to achieve an Utopia on earth itself. Full of fun and laughter. Wouldn't life be miserable? I'm no sadist, nor masochist. But I don't find life full of ups and no downs interesting.

Really out of brain juices now. I think I can very well endlessly go on with this.

Heh