Waking up everyday, feeling lethargic is certainly a bad sign. Its back to the unhealthy lifestyle of waking at funny and lousy timing. 

This is bad, its as if I'm living aimlessly everyday. And with the releasing of results on the 24th coming closer (and the eventual bad news of forward module), I can hardly get a grip on myself.

It feels as if everything is going in reverse flow of against what I wanted. Well, I know I brought it upon myself, but it wouldn't hurt to rant a little, would it?

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Well, putting that aside, the weather these days are very tempting. Rainy eh? Certainly a good weather to sleep in. (Just that I've always woke up at screwed up timing, sleeping anymore would make me a koala bear. lol)

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I wonder. How come different people from different country can have such a huge difference in perception on a person? The Japanese students I bring around Singapore always have such a positive perception on me that I find it hard, not to blush.

But of course, the same reaction I get from both Singaporeans and Japanese never failed to amuse me. Whenever they asked the question, on whether I have a girlfriend. I answered 'No', and they'll be surprised. Then they'll ask whether if I had any ex-girlfriends. Answering truthfully will make them doubt me. It just, feels damn hilarious.

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Well, even I -want-a girlfriend. Thats a given, I'm 19 this year, and not having one almost make me stick out as if I'm borderline gay. I'm not. 

Its just that, I feel that if we don't bide our time and choose wisely (well, 'choose' may sound vulgar, but I can't really think of any words more suitable for now), we may be very well wasting our time, money and energy.

Well, maybe its just me. But I'm the sort that wants an everlasting relationship, so definitely, I'll take my time and see, whether the girl in mind can really click well. I need someone whom I can confide in, and definitely strong enough emotionally.

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Well, putting those asides. I shall go and take a shower and play my PS3. I can't help but feel drained out in the brain department. Maybe I'm not feeling so expressive today.

Ja.