Although my comfortable bed beckons and just looking at it tempts and lulls the two windows on my face to shut, I shall pen, or rather in this situation, write, down my various random thoughts that flash past my mind today.

I think I recovered pretty well already.

From what? From wallowing in self-pity.

Indeed, my outstanding results (in the negative way) have gave me a slap across the face in my mind's eye. Such dejection, just from knowing that, is a huge wound to myself. Indeed, complacency will be my very undoing.

However, I find it... pointless.

Not in studying, definitely. But rather, pointless in brooding about what has happened, or contemplating what -could have- happened. (Such as I could have scored GPA 4.0 or something)

I mean, sure, you can feel remorse for whatever you do, you can reprimand yourself inwardly for all the mistakes you've committed. But definitely, even if you do not forgive yourself, you have to face it.

What's happened, has happened.

There is no way for us to turn the time back just to simply amend our mistakes or relive the moment or memories that we want. If there are things that you don't like about your environment now, there are only two things you can do.

1) Change, be it yourself, or find a way to influence your environment to change.

2) Endure and bite the bullet. The time for a new environment will definitely come.

Whatever it is, I shall stop being so complacent and lazy (mostly lazy actually). Studying shall be one of my priorities from now on, and I'll set these goals, of at least being capable of entering a local university. And the me from tomorrow, will inherit these goals I set today.

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Some people just doesn't change. Yes, I change the topic real quickly. I think I've given up on certain individuals. More than a year of lecturing and nagging is wasting my time, energy and breath. Since they refuse to do anything about it, I'm not obligated to help anymore.

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These few days, been kinda busy, kinda not. Stayed over at Isaac's place to crash some games. Pretty interesting and had some chat over. I think exchange insights aren't bad at all.

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I need to re-collect my thoughts. So Wayne shall sign out from here.

Jya