Life is finally picking up it's pace. I'm no longer having the the silhouette of her image in my mind anymore. I'm really putting in conscious efforts to try and forget, and move on.

But of course, things like this isn't as easy as I say. Something like this isn't even possible or achievable in the first place. Maybe I'm just putting up a brave front, or simply just decided subconsciously to bury these deep inside. 

Why do I say that? Simply because though I stopped thinking consciously and everything. Every time theres something that reminds me of that person, or the thought simply appeared out of nowhere, theres this pain inside.

Its.. really excruciating. Every time when I think of the days where we can have a good conversation without me worrying of anything, and the days we have a good conversation.

It even brings back then, the days where I truly felt like being myself and enjoyed myself.

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It sounds like I'm weak sometimes, always looking back. I know damn well that life's nothing if we only looked back and reminisce, or be too damn focused about the future. Life's about living the moment, having an aim for future, and embracing the past.

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But of course, bad dramas aren't all that is to life. I believe that, no matter how much bad drama happens, it doesn't matter.

There is so much in life to live for, so much to achieve, so many smiles to see. If I can reach out to them, I will.

Life isn't just about bad dramas. Even if given a choice where I'd be born with a golden spoon, have no problems, talented and whatsoever, I'd choose to have a balanced life, with bad dramas.

Bad things that happens to us makes us appreciate the good things that happens. Take it as counting your blessings. It is the bad things, that make the good ones stand out, the bad things that happens, makes us appreciate the good ones.

Its like, having school work and assignments all the time, but when holiday comes and we go on an overseas trip, we truly appreciate the value of worth it has.

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Everyday I wish for her happiness and safety. Because prayers are the only thing I can do. 

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Stupid of me eh. Ah well. \o