Staying over at a friend's place today. It's been like, forever since our clique has meet up. AND, two of the six, who by right can't stay over, are staying over. Its like a day of miracles.

So I got around to cooking fried rice for them today. Thank good its edible and not poisonous. :o

The saddest thing about this is, well, I do enjoy myself quite abit.. But, I can't really enjoy myself to the point where I am really enjoying myself. Shit, thats kinda contradicting. Guess being moody is like, really bad.

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Good friends, good company, good food, ample supply of beverages + ice wine. I really frown upon my incapability to enjoy and cherish things before me and all I'm doing is putting up a mask of smile, or donning a poker face.

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Yet, despite all these.. I think I still count what I'm going through as a blessing. For I may never know that at the end of this entire thing, what I may get out of it.

Haha, I wish I'm really that positive now.

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Its incredibly irritating that I'm doing this and acting this way. But I guess its better that I don't talk to people about it. This is like, something I want to avoid.

Thats all for today I guess.