So my previous post was something written in a fit of anger and pretty much what I call "reckless lashing". But I'm not planning to pull it down or anything at all. It sounds pretty angry and everything, but I don't think it's false. Its truly what I thought.

But now when I take a look at it, I'm glad I wrote something down like that. Because when I read it again myself, I realized one thing. "Why am I like that? Who am I trying to impress anyway? Why am I so irritated?"

I seem to act childishly and everything. 

I don't see why when my world revolves around someone, it becomes like that. I need to stop.

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Stopped.

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Well. Saying of something is different from doing. But it is something that I've been really trying very hard to do. I've made some progress. 

I hope it won't be long till I'm 'me' again. Of course, it doesn't mean that I no longer like that particular someone. It just means that I am in control, and not raw emotions that's the boss.

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Because I know very well that I'm not the one.