Its been quite a few days since I blogged eh? Guess after the school has reopened, I've been so busy that my brain stopped processing as feverishly as usual. Insomnia is hardly a problem now that I tire out after school ends.

Still, random thoughts and exploration hardly stops even during breaks. Most of the time, I eat alone, voluntarily. 

I don't know why, but somehow I've grown accustomed to eating alone. It just feels more 'right'. And of course, when you're alone, you get to think of all the random things.

Which of course, led to certain imagination and pondering of very... 'fantasy' based things. Such as where do people go when they pass away, whether if theres really "Hell"/"Hades" or "Heaven". Or if people pass away, they become a star in the sky.

I know, its very random. But probably distracting enough for me to ponder for an hour or more to explore the novelty of that idea.

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School has really been a crazy  wreck. New week and its something of an "orientation". Early releases and everything, but I'm already tired. Next week and afters might actually be crazy and packed with assignments.

But of course, being busy has been very effective with keeping certain thoughts at bay. 

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Apart from school work, I've got several games to finish, a new novel to read (actually, I'm already halfway through), and more people to talk to. I realized that it's really been a long time since I've contacted some people; its about time to catch up with them.

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Giving up isn't easy. I know I've been on this for quite awhile. But I realized it really isn't easy. No matter how busy you are, how much you try to distract yourself, it still won't work. Bury it deep down and when you unconsciously thought of that, it just pops up and stick out like a sore thumb. 

I think. This is about it. Will update soon again I guess.

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Sometimes I just wish

At least, a platform for me to see whats going on.

For it is painful 

Just to not see or talk to you

Not knowing anything going on with you

Is more than just a torture.