So right now I'm tapping on the keys on my iPhone. This is kinda crazy as it is incredibly difficult to blog with only two fingers even against the landscape keyboard. Then again, I guess I do have things on my mind to blog about (or just vent about, really).

Its 1.40 am in the morning now. I grow concern about my deteriorating health. Now that the Mum pointed it out to me, I grew conscious about it and really noticed it. Apparently other than my lack of appetite these days (4 days and all I ate was two slices of pizza and a bowl of fish noodle), I have laboured breathing now. Luckily my appetite these days wasn't as bad as the past week though. I actually finished a packet of food in camp today \o/.

Well, the lack of appetite's problem is solved now, so that part isn't that worrying anymore.

Insomnia has always been problem in the past. I'm glad that nowadays, as long as I blog about stuffs that's in my head swarming, I'd have a lot easier time falling asleep. So that's a huge problem minimized to a smaller one. Though it couldn't have been done with the help of a friend (Y)

Well. Right now basically I'm still awake for various reasons. Stuffy and warm room and I'm feeling slightly feverish to boot. But at least isn't something that's THAT worrying. Fluids and a good rest will solve the problem.

School administrative matters are also settled. The very fact that I can use the school Wi-Fi with my ID account means that my name is back on the list. Time table should be on the way and fees are thing of the past.

The Mum also seems to take my advice. She and my brother were talking about something yesterday; work related. But at least it's a good development. Family matters shouldn't be that worrying anymore. She actually asked me out along to go to her friend's open air lounge. It's okay. They asked me if I want to work as a bartender; an option I might consider. Oh, and interesting fact: my mum actually didn't object me to drinking alcohol (that and I told her that I exercise moderation and in control, as I very rarely drink alcohol). She actually refilled my mug with beer. Which is really an interesting and amusing sight to watch.

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Actually, listening to music in a quiet room full of people and blogging away isn't a bad experience. I'm like looping songs like "My Hands", "Dearly Beloved", "Why", "Suna no Oshiro", "Still Doll", "Every Time You Kissed Me", "期待爱＂, "Shiori", "To Zanarkand" and more songs.I highly recommend the songs I mentioned to anyone who bothers reading his blog. Open your mind towards these songs and you'll come to appreciate them.

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Mum heard of my thoughts on changing course. She had a very big reaction to it as it was very far from home. But of course, they have nothing to say if that were really my decision. I mean, even though I made my decision, I am still thinking about it seriously as it isn't a joking situation.

The elder brother also seem slightly against it. He said that what I study diploma isn't what I would necessarily pursue as a career anyway, and that I can always get a degree from SIM or simply just study in a good university overseas (Ivy League Universities). But because of my inadequate grades for Polytechnic, I'll need to take a bridging course. (Or so says the brother)

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Studying overseas was always something I wanted to do in the past. If I were younger, I'd be really excited at the prospect. Unfortunately, this isn't the case now. I guess there are a lot of things that I cannot bear to let go now. Important people in my life, important friends in my life, important things to do in my life.And maybe, just maybe, I'm wanting to take a new course might be me unable to let go of certain things. It's another 2 years to NS anyway.

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I congratulate myself for the perseverance in continue my record of WOT journal entries even on iPhone.

Alright, that's all from the feverish Sagittarius today.

And because iPhone doesn't allow me to change the fonts, size and colours. I apologise if you guys have to squint your eyes to read this.