Grit, and forget it. Grit and let nothing else escape that. Even if everything fails. Grit.

Has it ever happened to you where you want to get to know this particular person, but you don't dare to get too personal for fear that it may not end well?

Happened for me. 

For me, my world doesn't revolve around me. So I do know that I'm not the only one thats keeping in things. I'm aware that you, or anyone else suffers. Why? Because life isn't all happy, clouds, candies and fluffy. That, and I believe that everyone has their own story to tell.

But being a person who's unable to express himself. I find it difficult to ask. Its like, wanting to know, and yet you don't know how to put it in a way that it wouldn't be intrusive.

*Sighs*

I find it harder and harder to control certain things. Maybe avoidance would be a better option than caution.

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That nightmare I had doesn't have the effect on me anymore. Sure, it left an impression on me, but it doesn't leave me all shaken anymore.

I cursed myself for doing that. Why do I show these signs of weaknesses? Damn it.

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Despite all that looking forward to the gathering later on. Somehow, I doubt that my mind will be taken off from what I'm thinking. Didn't happen for the past week, doubt it'll work.

..*Sighs*

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Ate a slice or two of pizza earlier. In fact, its the most I've ever ate since Friday. I just very tiredly told my mum that I didn't have the appetite, washed my hands and went back to my room. She said that she noticed ever since I got back from my overseas trip that I've bad to no appetite. I said "I don't know why."

In fact, maybe I don't, maybe I do. Who cares? The matter still stands, I don't have the appetite.

Though now that I think about it, these few days, I've been really eating little to none. For 3 days, altogether I had were, 2 slices of pizzas, yu pian mee fen and nothing else. Hah.

Odd, huh.

Really tired. Really, really tired.