After what seems like endless chat and discussion with Jac and Han about the main thing thats bothering me all these time. I realized there are certain things that are unnecessary worries that bothers me. Although the discussion took hella long and it got to the point where it reminds them of their own bad experiences, I have to thank them for sharing and trying to push me in the right direction.

Its like, this certain part of me that I have lost along the way when I was all broken, uncertain and lost. Then after that conversation, I came to realize that some things doesn't matter at all, and that I shouldn't even be bothered by them; mainly the opinions, thoughts and views of others.

I understand that some things, we have to do it "right" by social standards. But this matter alone, is one thing that I realize that I must follow my heart. I questioned myself over and over again, then I had a revelation that this is not something I will want to give up on. And that if I ever let this go, I will not be the same again.

Finding out what really matters to me really turned me into someone that I've not been for awhile. A second before I was all depressed, tired, lack confidence and having a migraine, and after that, all those negativity just disappears.

I was filled with confidence, determination and the migraine just disappears. I actually felt like nothing could bring me down (Yeah, I know, its called overconfidence).

I literally felt strength coursing through my entire being and yes, my eyes. Now I finally understand what the anime always portrays eyes with flames and everything. Its the strength of their resolve.

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After all these. I think I've really got over the all self-pity and depressed state. No, it doesn't mean that I've given up on anything. But I decided that I will go for it, for if I ever let this pass by me, I'll regret it.

So, take a leap of faith with me and just let things go on naturally. Kay?

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Few days ago, I posted a song called "期待爱" by JJ Lin. I was looking at it with a negative light. Today, I look at the lyrics in a positive light.