Today was simply tiring. Its barely 4 pm in the noon now and I'm feeling the lethargy, as if I'm going through a series of ordeal that constantly plague my mind, and the matter just loops, never ending.

Administrative stuffs had to be done and I'm not even half-way through. Procedures yet to be gone through, finances liabilities yet to be settled, plans yet to be confirmed.

I walked, I stood, I sat and I laid, all in deep thought, with a single song on my iPhone looping on and on as it was the only one that actually suited my mood.

Few things went through, here and there. Thoughts buzz past. I can only come to a decision.

Theres no point in wallowing in anymore self-pity. Whats done is done. This is something that I myself have to go through, and see through it myself. Fine, so the Pandora's box has been unleashed. I'll close it back, and never ever let anyone glance upon it's contents ever, again.

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After many, many thoughts about the things thats going on. I've made my choices, decided my plans.

Because this is a battle, that I've been fighting, and will only be ever fighting it by myself, alone.

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I will never open my heart again.

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Oh, did I mention how much I love this particular song?

My life 一直在等待 
空荡的口袋
想在里面放一份爱
Why 总是被打败 
真的好无奈
其实我实实在在
不管帅不帅

想要找回来 
自己的节拍 
所以这一次 
我要勇敢大声说出来  
期待期待你发现我的爱
无所不在我自然而然的关怀
你的存在心灵感应的方向
我一眼就看出来
是因为爱

我猜你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯越靠近越明白
不要走开
幸福的开始就是放手去爱